JuSt A pLAiN iNtrO.......

Wondering,why the hell am i blogging??Nothin that i am against it but was never close to thinking of writing abt myself , my life or my ideas .Have al my friends writing and that seriously makkess me feell useless sometimes.For the matter of fact that i am d laziext person to ever meet.Anyways writing is somethin that i have never practised ,so this may be is a platform where in ll be happy enough to put my wrting skills to best use (tough i donot possess any).Actually this for me is a place to be me .Let me begin my journeyy of writing by beginning with a writing of my idea of believeing in oneself .
Believing in oneself.....seems so philosophical doesnt it ?? I agree that its primaraily the fisrt value ne should believe in ,but unfortunately today many people feel to do so .i am speaking about this ,because i was a victim to not believe in myself .The reason being,may be my personailty was not of the confident type or i can blame a hell lot of people who have entered my life and abuse them of having meesed with my work .But then one day i spent one whole day introsepecting on mah achievements in life (that was may be when i was 15) .I was shocked to know that i had achieved nothin but certain things that others wanted me too and nothin that satisfied my conscience .I had nothin achieved by myself i.e on my own but i did wat others saw for me or pictured me to become. Where was i ???what did i achieve that i wanted to ?I was conditioned to the syndrome of WHAT WILL PEOPLE THINK OF ME IF I DO THIS OR THAT .I felt ashamed...felt like i have no respect for me in front of my own eyes.This does sound like a hindi movie dialogue or may be whos dis looser whos writing about this shit .but give it a thought ... let me leave dis writing incomplete ...let me ask u a few questions and i am suree ill be able to may be havee a great research done over what you guys have to say .....

1. WHAT DO U THINK U ARE ?
2. WHAT IS THE BEST U HAVE ACHIEVED WITH COMPARISON TO YOURSELF ?
3. WHY DO U THINK AM I RAISING SUCH QUESTIONS TO YOU ?
4. WHAT IS YOUR THOUGHT ABOUT BELIEVEING YOURSELF ?

Im suree its mitee be a boring question to be answered but my main reason is to find all those posititve tinking people and get their ideas to help people who lack positivity around .For me my existance in this world is futile if i dont care of the people around.

Anyways enpugh of serious discussions ...but hey dis doesnt mean that im someone whos doent have fun...just that my ideas of fun arent general ideas of people .